Shemale Lesbian Problems

I’m sexy as fuck.

3I have to be honest, though, that my muscles are seriously beginning to irritate me, even as there’s nothing I can do about them except wait and let hormones knock them out. I imagine that it’s going to take a while, because I’ve always been pretty muscular. I’ve lifted weights most of my life, too, which has caused a lot of people to be surprised when I have to do something that really shows my muscles–or just flex. When I worked at Domino’s Pizza years ago, we were messing around near closing time, and discussing exercising, and everyone was showing their muscles. When the conversation worked its way around to me, I was like, “Nah, that’s alright. I’ve gotta do some dishes.” They pressed, however, so I flexed.

People are always surprised, because I’m so skinny, but I’m seriously all muscle. When lifting weights years ago at a gym, I had to be strapped down while working a machine that had me pulling the weights down from above, because it was instead lifting me into the air. It was a reverse benchpress kinda thing, I don’t know what it’s called. But there were several people in the gym, and everyone was shocked that skinny little me was like “No, put 150 pounds on it. I’ll start there.” When I owned a Bowflex (Don’t buy a Bowflex), I had to order two extra 50-pound resistors, because the default weight wasn’t enough for me to get a workout.

When I got home from school everyday during early high school, I’d jump and grab the roof of our house, and proceed to do pull-ups while lifting my knees–there’s nothing that works abs as much as doing that. And when all that combined, I ended up with mostly a 6-pack abs and quite a bit of muscle on my arms. So there was like a decade or more of pretty regular weight-lifting, crunches, sit-ups, and pull-ups.

I’m thinking it’s gonna take a few years for estrogen to atrophy those muscles away.

2I’m also looking pretty good, though! I don’t normally do my makeup that well, but I had several hours over which to do it, and I had plans that night, so the extra effort was important. I could have gone anywhere I needed to go looking like that, and no one would have looked twice–well, they might have, but it would not have been because they suspected I might have a penis.

Well, except for the muscles.

Those still are dead giveaways.

_20160717_120753I am pretty sexy, though, and I do enjoy showing that off. I’m kinda torn on the subject, though, because I want to take extra care to avoid being stereotyped like many transgender people are. I can handle my abs being like the pic there on the left, and you can even see where curves are starting to develop. There are clear curves there, and I really like that.

Even my legs are pure muscle, though. Look at them.

Just one big ass muscle there.

My legs are okay, though. I’m not particularly bothered by my legs, though I don’t like my ass.

One of the girls I was recently talking to pretty obviously wanted me to keep being a guy. It does put me in a weird position, granted, because these two left-aligned pics… they seem more like the sort of thing that would attract a guy, not a girl, and I’m not trying to attract guys. I’m well aware how this works for me sexually/romantically, thanks.

Interestingly, I used to take pictures because I looked more feminine in pictures than I did in the mirror. I went from using a lot of Photoshop to using filters to using no filters to using the rear camera. Now, however, I find that I look more feminine in the mirror than I do in picture. Why is that?

Mostly, it’s mentality.

I know the blurring work is sloppy. I don't really care.

I know the blurring work is sloppy. I don’t really care.

I know that my friends are put off a bit by it, and seeing pictures like those two on the left and this one on the right leave them asking, “Um… What kind of girl is she going to attract with pictures like that?

Well…

Um…

One that licks ass, I suppose.

But no, seriously, I’m well aware of the problems it creates–I spend a lot of time thinking about that. It’s also true, though, that I’m sexually fluid–something that very few of my friends know, but may have guessed, and something which alleviates much of the problem. While I could never be with a guy in any serious way, I like having a good time. And there’s also the fact that: yes, there are plenty of chicks out there who would see that pic and be interested.

They’re not in Mississippi, though.

They think they are, but they’re not. They always end up back at that place, where they’re basically asking me, “Can’t you just be a guy?”

No… No, sweetie, I can’t just be anything except me.

I’m working on leaving Mississippi, though. I’ve got a GoFundMe Campaign aimed at that end, because it’s really important that I leave the south and go somewhere that I can live and exist in peace, security, and stability. If you’d be interested in donating or even sharing the campaign, that would be fantastic, and infinitely appreciated: www.gofundme.com/transgendermove . I’ve submitted a novel recently for publishing and have my fingers crossed for that, but that’s a long shot, you know?

3 thoughts on “Shemale Lesbian Problems

  1. I think its more about perspective than anything else. Why does a woman have to be someone without muscles like a man? It is harder for a woman to do that, but not impossible as seen by female body builders.

    I think more than anything to me, your feelings toward your body might be more to do with where you live. The way it makes you feel and how you feel you have to suppress your true nature in the way you express it in how your body looks.

    But who would find you attractive? I know I do. Its not so much about that you fit into my idea of what is physically attractive or that you look feminine or not. But the confidence you seem to have. Its hard to translate into words. But if I see someone that comes across as being confident and takes pride in themselves then I am attracted to them. If on the other hand I see someone who is not confident, who tries to hide who they are then its a turn off regardless of how physical attractive they may be to me.

    So at least in my eyes don’t worry so much about if the hormones are going to do with your muscles. Just let them do their work on your body. Let your true self come out and be proud of it. That will attract people to you.

    Well that is once you get out of there and move somewhere else. Somewhere where people allow and encourage you to be you instead of trying to make you into something your not.

    • That’s one of the funnier things about transgenderism–it pretty much involves sexism. That was really amusing a few months ago, with a girl who told me that I was sexist and I pointed out, “Obviously. I’m transgender.” To be transgender is to look at the stereotypes applied to the sexes and realize that the stereotypes you’re “forced” to adhere to don’t really apply. In some respects, I’m anti-sexist, as I’m breaking so many male stereotypes. Men are supposed to “cook a mean steak” and have beards and a beer they’re willing to fight over. And, well… that’s quite obviously not me. Instead, because I want to blend in and be recognized/accepted as a female, I seek out and purposefully adhere to stereotypes.

      The primary issue with the muscles, though, is that *I* don’t find them attractive, and they’re not “feminine.” I’m not into buff body-building women, either. I don’t think my ex-wife weighed 100 pounds soaking wet. It’s less about how other people see me and more about how I see myself, I think, but they are also a big cause of problems–just as something about my face is that I haven’t yet been able to identify. That most recent pic of my face is great, by far the best I’ve ever taken. Is it the light blush? Is that what made the difference? I don’t know. Some more contouring practice wouldn’t hurt, though.

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